Yesterday was such an up-and-down day for me. Or really I guess I should say down-and-up since it started out pretty rough and then got so much better. As many of you know, yesterday was Kevin‘s first day back to work. I have been dreading him going back ever since Riley was born and after yesterday, I think I was dreading it for good reason. Taking care of two kids under the age of two is hard work! And of course, the night before yesterday morning was Riley‘s hardest night yet. He was up almost every hour and then woke up at 4 AM for the day. I think I got 3 hours of sleep total. If that. It was so bizarre, he normally sleeps all the time (waking up often to nurse) but for some reason he was up from about 4 AM until 11 AM. And that’s after being up every hour all night long. So with him up at 4 AM and then Molly up at 6 AM I was absolutely exhausted yesterday morning.
And in general, Molly is just at an age now where she’s needing constant attention. And she’s throwing toddler tantrums left and right. I think part of it has to do with her age and a huge part of it is probably the fact that she’s feeling jealous of baby Riley. So to make a really long story short, I basically had a mini-breakdown yesterday morning where I was in tears because I was feeling so overwhelmed. And really I was just feeling so exhausted that I needed a good cry. When Kevin walked in the door from work, I basically melted into his arms and just let myself cry. I’m honestly pretty embarrassed to even admit this since it was only my FIRST day home alone with two kids under two. I have to do this for years! And here I am breaking down on the very first day. I think I was just so exhausted that I couldn’t think or function rationally.
So when Kevin got home from work around noon (Yes I’m super lucky that he goes to work at 4 AM and is home by noon every day), he insisted that I go take a nap and then take some time to myself. So I did just that. I took about an hour and a half nap and then I jumped in the shower, put on some make up, blow-dried my hair and put on a cute maxi dress just to wear around the house. The reason I did all that is I just really needed to feel like myself even just for a couple hours. Riley is going to be 3 weeks old tomorrow and in the last 3 weeks, I’ve only showered 3 times and the only times I put on any make up is when we did a family photo shoot and a home tour photo shoot of our house. I never just got ready for the day to get ready for the day. And I needed to do that to feel like me again. And you know what?! It felt really nice! Of course I had to snap some pics for the blog and gave my very best Angelina Jolie leg. Ha!
And let me just rave about this maxi dress for a minute. I first wore it when we did our home tour photos a few days ago, and I have to say that for the first time since I gave birth, I actually felt like I looked OK in regular clothes again. And don’t get me wrong, I’m still 19 pounds above my pre-pregnancy weight and my belly is as jiggly as can be. It hangs over my jeans and I’m totally OK with that! Actually, who am I kidding, I don’t wear jeans these days I only wear leggings but it hangs over my leggings. Ha! But what I love about this dress is that I feel pretty in a piece of clothing again (I haven’t since giving birth). It’s just super flattering and the material is forgiving. I’m wearing a size medium which is my pre-pregnancy size. It comes in yellow too.
Oh and while I have you guys I have to tell you about the amazing clock on the wall in the staircase behind me! It’s a big oversized white clock that is meant to look like the clock in Chip and Joanna Gaines’ house. I’m obsessed with Fixer Upper so naturally I love it! I got it from a small shop on Etsy called West Warren Clocks that is owned by a husband and wife. I messaged back-and-forth with one of the owners, Nicole, and she could not have been sweeter! She answered all my questions promptly and I could tell that making these clocks is a true passion project for her and her husband! If feels really good to support her shop and if any of you are looking for a gorgeous clock for your home, I couldn’t recommend their shop more! The quality is beautiful and the prices are so good for what you get! THIS is the exact clock we have. I’ll share more photos of it when we do our home tour reveal in a few weeks.
Anyway, I just want to give you guys a little update on me and fill you in on what’s going on in the Manno household. I have someone coming over this morning to help me with Molly so I can focus on Riley and hopefully have a less stressful morning. If there’s one thing I’m doing differently with Riley then I did with Molly, it’s asking for help as much as I can and whenever I need it! It’s so important to realize you can’t do it all on your own and I will happily admit that and take all the help I can get! Hope you guys have a great Wednesday!