My sweet girl. I haven’t even started writing this letter yet and I’m already in tears. I normally think I’m pretty good with words. I write pretty much every single day and never really have trouble coming up with what I want to say. But as I sit here trying to write this letter to you, I feel like no words are appropriate for how much you’ve changed my life. But I’m gonna give it my best shot and hope that I capture a sliver of your beautiful spirit.
You’re going to spend much of your life trying to figure out who you are. That term is thrown away around a lot. “Who am I?” I want you to know it’s OK not to know the answer to that question. I for one didn’t discover who I really was or what I was made of until I became your mom. You’ve shown me the absolute best sides of myself. And the worst. And I mean that in the best way possible. I used to think I was a somewhat patient person, and then you came into my life and decided to test that patience (I love you for it) to help show me that I can be better. So every day I’m trying to be more patient and better for you.
You’ve also shown me how to love more. Not just others and most of all you, but also how to love myself. That love for myself stems from you showing me that I am strong beyond measure. Being your mom has definitely shown me the weakest parts of myself but in many instances, you have made me learn to love myself more as I see what I’m capable of as your mother. You’ve not only made me proud of you but also managed to make me proud of me. Thank you for that.
And as you know, because we hope to tell you about them all the time, you were named after your great grandma’s Molly Fedotowsky and Eva Sullivan. They would be in awe of you and beaming with pride to know you bear their name. Like your grandma Eva, I hope you always choose to see the bright side of things. She had a great sense of humor and could always make light of any situation. And like your grandma Molly, I hope you give more than you take. She put everyone before herself and would have given up everything and anything for me. And I know that your grandmothers, Mimi and Grammie, would give and do anything for you.
And I want you to know how truly special you are. At only 22-months old, we know we are seeing just the beginning of the incredible person you’re becoming as you grow. There are a few things I never want you to forget.
Keep fostering your thirst for knowledge. You are so very smart. Your most prized possessions are your favorite books – like the belly book, Goodnight Moon, Daniel Tiger and your Cubbies book. They are the very first things you ask for in the morning. Your pediatrician said you should know 200 words by the time you’re two years old. You’re still two months shy from two and I’m pretty sure you know over 2000 words. I’m so proud of you. I really believe you could change the world one day. And at the very least, you’ve changed our world for the better.
Never forget the special bond you have with your daddy. Oh how your daddy makes you laugh. The two of you can play and giggle for hours. You adore him and so do I. And know he loves your mommy too. I hope more than anything you grow up and meet someone like him who loves you as much as he loves me. And who treats you the way HE treats us. So when you’re 16-years old, and mad at us, because that time will come, remember this bond with your father. It’s truly special and unlike no other.
Never stop smelling the flowers. You are 22-months old right now and one of your absolute favorite things to do (besides singing “Havana” and reading) is to go for walks and to stop and smell every flower along the way. Never stop doing that. Life is wonderful and a gift, but so many of us take that for granted. I myself bury myself in work and emails and often find myself staring at my phone/computer for hours when when I should be staring at you. The most simple things in life are what makes life so beautiful. You remind me of this everyday with your sweet sensibility and how you always, always stop to smell the flowers.
And lastly know we love you unconditionally. You will never be alone because we will always be here for you. You are our very best friend and we never want that to change. Come to us when you have questions, lean on us when you feel defeated, and share all the beautiful moments in your life with us. Family is the single greatest gift in the world, that not everyone is as fortunate as we are to have. Cherish yours.
And as your brother comes into this world, I want you to know how much we’ve treasured this time with you as our only baby. But we truly believe that your world is about to get so much sweeter with the addition of your brother. You have so much love to give and we know you will be the best person in his life. He is one lucky little boy to have a big sister like you to look up to. Always look out for each other.
We love you sweet Molly. Forever our first baby.